Saturday, October 30, 2010
So my research continues and I remind myself to stay positive. Tomorrow is Halloween and it's my favorite so I look forward to another fabulous day. I wish everyone the best weekend and endless baby dust!
Friday, October 29, 2010
I'm a different type of women that's able to see both sides of the story. No one is ever 100% right, they may be 99% right but never 100%. Can you tell I was a middle child? haha. I'm always able to see both sides of a story and never cast a negative opinion on either side :)
If only we were told the 1 solution that would result in our own baby, what a dream! Only tears of joy and none of disappointment. Sign me up right? Unfortunately that doesn't happen and that's when we ladies need to feel comfortable enough to turn to each other for support. If you're anything like me you're doing this by yourself with no one to talk to.......until you find the cyber support :)
My hubby offered me some support today. If you've read my blog you've seen how scared I am of feeling baby movement, so scared in fact that I would almost avoid pregnancy because of it. Anywho, I ask my hubby if he thought I could handle it....point blank. He looked at my and said, "Yes, you'll be just fine". Wow! He mentioned some others points of what he thought was the the root of my fears. The others were more emotional for me so I'll leave them silent here on my blog. There's a huge reason why I married my best friend, love ya honey!
I hope I don't lose anyone my obscure thought process. I asked my hubby what he thought and he said he'd at least like the chance to do his part in the IF process. For example, at least trying 1 round of IVF. I'm scared beyond belief but I put my life in my hubby's hands. He's like that solid piece of sanity when I hit my crazies :)
Anywho, as long as I can hold strong I'll be looking at doing a round of IVF in the very beginning of 2012. Thank goodness for tax returns!! Don't ya just hate having to make decisions due to money, grrrrrrr.
However my questions still stands...............what does it feel like to have your own baby move inside you?????? A fellow blogger has been my grip on sanity and I thank you dearly, you know who you are.
I thank everyone for all of the comments, I've never felt so secure and supported. You ladies are the greatest and I hope that you can continue to help and support me through my future ventures. I know I'll always adopt at least one child. So all you adopters out there please keep me in your thoughts! I send a silent kiss out there this evening to my future children, I love you dearly and can't wait to hold you in my arms.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
All we're trying to do is offer our love and forever home to an infant in need, you'd think people would take advantage of that offer. Frustration seems to be my mood today, sorry everyone. Sometimes it just feels like my dream will never happen. No more road blocks! Now, enough of my cruddy mood :)
I'd love to hear from parents that have recently adopted. I've researched many facilities/agencies but I really don't know what I should be looking for first. Any advice/guidance is VERY welcomed and appreciated!!
Maybe this is going to be my wonderful start to my family........
Monday, October 25, 2010
We had our 3rd SA done in June. Our results for this 3rd one were definitely the best results and gave me hope until my RE's office talked with me about our options. It took my RE's office a couple weeks to get the results to me and then it took them almost 2 months to get back to me about the questions I had. At that point I lost most of my hope and I've almost given up on the whole idea of starting a family. It just doesn't feel like getting pregnant is even an option for us.
Here is what the 3rd SA was:
63 mil, 76% motility & 3% morphology.
With each SA the results went up significantly, so significantly in fact that I thought we'd be able to conceive on our own.
12-15% with Clomid and IUI
15-20% with injectables and IUI
60% with IVF....of course
and only 5% with timed, natural intercourse.
I’m open to insight from my fellow IF’ers. I thought the results looked good but you know how they like to push IVF. I’m not against IVF but I won’t be able to afford it for a couple years.
By a strange coincidence a got in touch with a women who is highly involved in IF matters and she was nice enough to offer support and suggest a clinic close to me that she's worked with. Phew!! It's a clinic I found helpful stats on while researching IF. When we're ready I think we'll probably be going to this clinic. The RE I have right now just wants my money and treats me like crap, I just can't trust people like that with my future.
Interesting questions for all the Moms out there........What does it feel like when the baby moves inside you? I want an actual description of what it feels like physically. I know I sound crazy but I've never had a pregnancy that went to the "feel the movement" stage and I think I'm a little scared to feel it?? Feel free to share your thoughts on this Moms, I totally appreciate it!!
Well I've got more cleaning to get to but I really appreciate everyone reading my blog and staying with me during my "crazies". Happy Monday to all!